RE:THE JOY OF HINDSIGHT

So I was going to write a blog all about whether Michael Vaughn should have been reinstated as England Captain test captain, and I was going to say that I thought probably not. This was for a number of reasons; lack of form, give someone else a go, was the desire still there?

Hindsight being the thing that it is, I of course now know that he does have the form, the desire and the will to achieve this and become the most successful England Cricket Captain ever. Something that I think I need to take note of in my life.

Now don’t get me wrong, I am not of course stating in a way, shape or form that I comparable to Mr Vaughn – god forbid, I do not foresee myself becoming the most successful cricket captain ever or indeed leading my country in anything - well apart from being clumsy and accident prone but surely that is a whole different kettle of fish, or is it?

You see this year I turned 30, and this year I have also suffered the two worst accidents of my life. I started of the year with a bang by falling down the stone steps in front of my house. It hurt and I ended up in casualty and now have a rather fetching scare on my chin.

Then after my birthday in April, I started my thirties with a bang by having a car crash – nothing too serious but there I was sitting on the plane going back, pondering on what it is that makes us all keep going. After the injuries and rehabilitation MV has had to go through, how has he managed to keep enthusiastic and determined to get back to the crease? Whilst ambition no doubt plays a part, a desire to prove to yourself and everyone else that you can do it and also I would imagine a complete love of what you do. He must wake up every day full of determination to get back out there and return again to his England Captaincy.

Therefore the question is, is that what makes one person a success and one not so much? Will I ever be that successful if I don’t really ever find what it is I love to do…? Or I don’t have the ambition and competitiveness to prove myself, and then am I just going to drift along going nowhere? That in itself is probably an indicator as why I am not as successful as some – because I look for excuses, sort of in that old Garfield adage, I’ll start my diet tomorrow.

We all work so hard and worry so much, but what for? Surely, to fulfil our dreams, but what about when you can’t think what your dreams are anymore? This is a state of affairs that simply cannot carry on, so this is it. I have decided to stop and think – to take a leaf out of the book of Mr Vaughn and get back to what it is that I love – now all I have to do is remember what it is that I want…..